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Internal Self-Empowerment: We are here, now. I don't know how we got here, but we are here. Blood is circulating; breath is going out and in. There is sound and there is silence. Whatever I presume or imagine myself to be; whatever I choose to identify with in any given moment, such as this one, seems to have either nothing or everything to do with it all...

ddaydreams Listen to this first: Osho: What is Happiness?

Can you imagine nothing? No people, no earth, no universe, no consciousness, no anything; just eternal nothingness without witness?

So far for me there has always been something. Even in the deepest sleep, still, I am. I may not remember, but I have no evidence that I am non-existant in any moment that I look. Always, there I am, whatever it is that is me.

The universe is only appearances in my awareness. Space, time, trees, houses, people, these hands that are typing on this keyboard, the thoughts that are occurring as they do – these things are all external, secondary to the consciousness of them, secondary to me, whatever it is that I am. They are all in the category of observed things, and observed things come and go; none of them are me or mine; none of them can ever be presumed to be real apart from me.

pickles If it is possible for me not to exist, then it is possible for this entire universe not to exist too. In fact it is certain. When I cease to exist, the universe will cease to exist too. It’s obvious that there can be no universe without me because I am an essential part of it. In fact, I am prior to it.

Sitting here, trying to imagine what nothing would be like, the thoughts settle down and I find I turn inward on myself. To get to nothing, I have to go through me. Is it possible for me not to exist? What is it, actually, that I am?

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'Personal' Report #5

Submitted from Tiruvannamalai, March 18, 2012

Obviously, as you know, Hell is just in the mind.
"I" is The Seductive Devil. No "I" is Heaven.
You don't have to physically die to have no "I".
You don't have to physically live to have one, as you're not even (merely) physically living right now.
In fact, if you die with an "I", you'll just dream up a new magnificent Hell.
Outside of fantasy, the only Reality is silence and peace and freedom and bliss and loving Heaven.
Easy to say. Easier than easy to be.
It is what you are. It is what everyone is; even the dolphins and the whales and the elephants and cockroaches and amoebas and rocks and the aliens. It is what God is.
And, only God exists.
It is obvious, isn't it?
Only imagination creates the savior Satan Claus in the sky. and imagination is definitively not real.
What is outside of fantasy? The witness of the fantasizer, which is just a hint of what's really going on.
There is no time. There is no space.
There is no train wreck that is about to happen. There is no train and there is no destination.
We are already here now. We have never been anywhere or anytime other than here now.
Here Now is not a time and/or a place.
It is the Reality.
It is the only God.
It is the only "I"; and, it doesn't have a name.
Empty of identity or boundary, It is FULL with whatever IS.
The entire fantasy universe comes after IT.
Obviously a Universe cannot even be perceived without a perceiver; and, even the particular perceiver is a fantasy. Take a look. It disappears as soon as you do.
What is there to cling to or resist; i.e. cause any suffering?
You don't make the blood course through the veins. You don't make the breath breathe. You don't bring the thoughts or emotions or sensations in front of the perception.
Take a look right Now. IT is delicious, isn't it?
Aum-Ammas-Cave What is underneath the doubt; what is underneath the All; what's indisputably REAL is only 'miraculous' DIVINITY, telling "me" to accept what is and know that God only Loves.
I am You; You are Me, just in another apparent incarnation.
You are released. "I" is released.
"I" REST my case.

Sorry. "I"'m not enlightened; "I"'m just babbling to my Self before Arunachala on this Glorious Sunday afternoon. Please Disregard Everything "I've" said.

"I" love you.
"I"'me sorry.
Please forgive me.
Thank you.

Back to: Personal Report #1; Personal Report #2; Personal Report #3; Personal Report #4.
Forward to: Personal Report #6; Personal Report #7; Personal Report #8; Personal Report #9; Personal Report #10; Personal Report #11.

See: Impersonal Life; J. Krishnamurti; U.G. Krishnamurti; Nisargadatta; Osho; Ramakrishna; Ramana Maharshi; Gilbert Schultz; Eckhart Tolle; Wei Wu Wei